Mitsuharu Misawa - R.I.P.

Mitsuharu Misawa

June 18, 1962 - June 13, 2009


Jun Akiyama, Mitsuharu Misawa, Kenta Kobashi, Yoshihiro Takayama

The blog is still on hold. I was planning on doing a small update on how thing are going and whats up with my life right now. Then the news broke and for the moment I want to honour one of the greatest men in proffessional wrestling. This is no time for me to talk about myself.

I found out late yesterday just before the UFC 99 event. I'm shocked to say the least. Mitsuharu Misawa, maybe the biggest legents of puroresu (japanese pro-wrestling) poassed away at the age of 46 in the ring due to heart failure after a back suplex. Some reports say he could have died in the ring.

This is the man who has been in most classic matches and he has probably won more "match of the year" awards than anyone. He also had probably the most amount of five star matches in history of pro-wrestling. He wasnt in good shape the last few years and this might have been part of the cause of his early death. In hindsight I just wish he would have stepped down after his last reign as GHC champ or even before that.

He was essential to pro-wrestling NOAH since he was the one leaving AJPW (All Japan Pro Wrestling) to form this new group. AJPW's most recognizable name leaving to form his own group. Partly successfull but lately not so much. Still during the best days one of my favorite organisations ever.

I am very happy to have witnessed Misawa live in action almost exactly a year ago in the Coventry Skydome. It was a great experience and a fantastic match. I just wish he was still here with us.

Scenes difficult to watch from the awful accident:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwzeAG2kmB0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndp0NUplIDI

WrestleView (through the Wrestling Observer) reports:

Mitsuharu Misawa, one of the greatest pro wrestlers of all-time, was declared dead at 10:10 p.m. Saturday night at a hospital in Hiroshima from an apparent heart attack after being being given a back suplex in a tag team title match.

Misawa would have turned 47 on June 18th.

Misawa, the president of Pro Wrestling NOAH, was teaming with Go Shiozaki in a match challenging Bison Smith & Akitoshi Saito for the GHC tag team championship in Hiroshima. Misawa was given the move at about 8:45 p.m. and knocked unconscious.

According to eye witness reports, Saito gave Misawa a "routine" back suplex that was described as a "7" in danger on a scale of one-to-ten. He did not get up. It was chaos in the ring as they attempted to revive him using CPR and the crowd was hushed for a while, and began a "Misawa" chant. He turned purple in the ring and was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance.

His heart stopped beating in the ring.

The wrestlers were told on the bus that he had passed away.

While it is being reported that he passed away at the hospital, he may have actually passed away in the ring.

Misawa was the Japanese high school national wrestling champion at 187 pounds in 1980, and was recruited by Giant Baba into All Japan Pro Wrestling. He gained his first taste of stardom in 1984 when he was chosen to be the second Tiger Mask. After unmasking in 1990, he became an even bigger star after a series of singles matches with Jumbo Tsuruta.

He was Japan's biggest pro wrestling star of the 90s, and one could make a strong case for him as the top wrestler of the decade. He was the Wrestler of the Year in 1995, 1997 and 1999.

After the death of Shohei "Giant" Baba, Misawa wrestled a little over one more year for All Japan Pro Wrestling, while working as company president. After consistently butting heads with owner Motoko Baba, the widow of Shohei Baba, he and 90% of the All Japan roster quit the company to form Pro Wrestling NOAH.

Here are some of my pictures from the show where I saw Misawa wrestle. They arent great but Im no proffessional. I also have a couple of pics of me and him both holding the swedish flag which of course was a great moment. All pictures feature Mitsuharu Misawa and Kenta Kobashi:

Im on blogger vacation....

Well, I havent been very active on this blog for quite some time now. There's several reasons for this. Work has been tougher with the restructuring we go through at the moment. I also try to decide on what to do and how to plan my vacation as well as trying to decide on my future. I will probably go to London this summer and basically get the feel of the city and see if I can get some input and/or insight into what might be the best action for me in regards to jobs and places to live. I will combine that with visiting a few friends of course. And will I sell the place I live in now or rent it out to someone etc? Theres just alot going through my mind and I havent felt inspired to write alot on here.

On top of all this Im trying to complete my studies in the science of religion which I hope I can manage before the summer starts for real.

Busy, busy, busy.....

Ny länk.

This is one of few posts in my native language and it is written in swedish because it deals with a blog that mainly uses that language.

Jag fann en blogg idag av en medlem av Golden Dawn som jag fann mycket intressant. Jag är som bekant mest inne på vänstra handens väg och dess uttryck och fann då ett långt inlägg som beskrev Thomas Karlssons (Dragon Rouge) syn på saken och sedan inkluderade bloggarens egna tankar. Det intressanta här är att sammanfattningen är mycket kompetent och så obektiv som jag tror att man kan vara och att kritiken på det är mycket väl genomtänkt. Delar av kritiken, ja kanske den största delen, håller jag dessutom med om. Den vänstra handens väg och den högra handens väg är olika vägar mot samma mål. Det var så de uppkom i öst och hur och varför de omtolkades till att ha olika mål vet jag inte. Oftast verkar det dock härstamma från Julius Evolas tolkning. Var Evola fick sin information om detta från vet jag inte.

För min del var tex Satanismen alltid ett uttryck för något som inte var dualistiskt även om jag givetvis inte alltid i mina yngre år uttryckte det på speciellt komplierade metafysiska nivåer. Jag kom tidigt i kontakt med "The Dark Doctrines Crew" och de förespråkade alltid en icke-dualistisk syn presenterat i sataniska termer (jag bryr mig föga om deras politiska åsikter, det var alltid det metafysiska som var intressant för min del). För mig var detta tidigt skillnaden mellan kristendomen och satanismen. Jag är medveten om att det i alra högsta grad finns satanister som är dualister också men för mig var det aldrig så. DD Crews längre texter är att föredra men dessa finns inte på hemsidan (de går att köpa, eller hitta på "inofficiella sidor").

Baphomet ser jag fortfranade som en av de främsta symbolerna för helheten i min värdssyn tillsammans med den Heraklitianska elden. Och även om jag gått ifrån att kalla mig satanist då det är för snävt och samtidigt något jag utvecklats bortom så har det stor betydelse för mig på flera sätt. Mina egna tankar om detta går att finna här, här och här.

Detta mycket längre än jag tänkte. Här är iaf länken till bloggen jag skrev om och texten om den vänstra handens väg i synnerhet. En länk ska läggas till i den vänstra menyn också.

Gyllene Gryningen - Angående den vänstra och den högra handens vägar.

Some notes.

As you can tell Im all healthy now which is why there was a slowing down in the posting compared to the amount of posts two weeks ago. Back at work means tired in the evenings but I hope to contribute more soon.

I made a Google Analytics account to see if people were really finding their way to this blog and to my surprise the blog has way more readers that I thought it had. The numbers arent amazing or anything but way more than the few I thought cared. Most based in Sweden, even though the blog is in english, but also from very varied parts of the world which is great. I just have a very low commentary rate on my posts and participation in my polls. I wonder why.

So anyway, I hope to be able to keep making people come back here and maybe to trick some new unexpecting victims into the Ephesos trap ;)

Barack Obama: We Are Not A Christian Nation.

Its very nice and refreshing to hear the president of the United States of America acknowledge that the country he represent isnt in fact a christian nation. Of course all the conservatives and the influential christian right may be terrified. However, as much as they talk about the founding fathers and the constitution did they ever read what they had to say about Christianity? Here are some excerpts that may get some people thinking:

The Founding Fathers on Religion

As the quotes on this page illustrate, the claim that America was founded on Christianity is a myth. Many of the Founding Fathers and Revolutionary War leaders were Deists, and upheld a firm separation of church and state.

Webster's New World Dictionary -- Third College Edition

Deism: (1) The belief in the existence of a God on purely rational grounds without reliance on revelation or authority; especially in the 17th and 18th centuries. (2) The doctrine that God created the world and its natural laws, but takes no further part in its functioning.

United States Constitution

The First Amendment
"Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion..."

Article VI, Section 3
"...no religious test shall ever be required as a qualification to any office or public trust under the United States."


John Adams (the second President of the United States)

Adams signed the Treaty of Tripoli (June 7, 1797). Article 11 states:
"The government of the United States is not in any sense founded on the Christian religion."

From a letter to Charles Cushing (October 19, 1756):
"Twenty times in the course of my late reading, have I been upon the point of breaking out, 'this would be the best of all possible worlds, if there were no religion in it.'"

From a letter to Thomas Jefferson:
"I almost shudder at the thought of alluding to the most fatal example of the abuses of grief which the history of mankind has preserved -- the Cross. Consider what calamities that engine of grief has produced!"

Additional quotes from John Adams:
"Where do we find a precept in the Bible for Creeds, Confessions, Doctrines and Oaths, and whole carloads of trumpery that we find religion encumbered with in these days?"

"The Doctrine of the divinity of Jesus is made a convenient cover for absurdity."

"...Thirteen governments [of the original states] thus founded on the natural authority of the people alone, without a pretence of miracle or mystery, and which are destined to spread over the northern part of that whole quarter of the globe, are a great point gained in favor of the rights of mankind."


Thomas Jefferson (the third President of the United States)

Jefferson's interpretation of the first amendment in a letter to the Danbury Baptist Association (January 1, 1802):
"Believing with you that religion is a matter which lies solely between man and his God, that he owes account to none other for his faith or his worship, that the legislative powers of government reach actions only, and not opinions, I contemplate with sovereign reverence that act of the whole American people which declared that their legislature should 'make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof,' thus building a wall of separation between church and State."

From Jefferson's biography:
"...an amendment was proposed by inserting the words, 'Jesus Christ...the holy author of our religion,' which was rejected 'By a great majority in proof that they meant to comprehend, within the mantle of its protection, the Jew and the Gentile, the Christian and the Mohammedan, the Hindoo and the Infidel of every denomination.'"

Jefferson's "The Statute of Virginia for Religious Freedom":
"Our civil rights have no dependence on our religious opinions, more than on our opinions in physics and geometry....The legitimate powers of government extend to such acts only as are injurious to others. But it does me no injury for my neighbor to say there are twenty gods, or no god. It neither picks my pocket nor breaks my leg."

From Thomas Jefferson's Bible:
"The day will come when the mystical generation of Jesus, by the Supreme Being as his father, in the womb of a virgin, will be classed with the fable of the generation of Minerva in the brain of Jupiter."

Jefferson's Notes on Virginia:
"Reason and persuasion are the only practicable instruments. To make way for these free inquiry must be indulged; how can we wish others to indulge it while we refuse ourselves? But every state, says an inquisitor, has established some religion. No two, say I, have established the same. Is this a proof of the infallibility of establishments?"

Additional quotes from Thomas Jefferson:
"It is error alone which needs the support of government. Truth can stand by itself."

"They [the clergy] believe that any portion of power confided to me, will be exerted in opposition of their schemes. And they believe rightly: for I have sworn upon the alter of god eternal hostility against every form of tyranny over the mind of man."

"I have examined all the known superstitions of the world, and I do not find in our particular superstition of Christianity one redeeming feature. They are all alike founded on fables and mythology. Millions of innocent men, women and children, since the introduction of Christianity, have been burnt, tortured, fined and imprisoned. What has been the effect of this coercion? To make one half of the world fools and the other half hypocrites; to support roguery and error all over the earth."

"In every country and in every age the priest has been hostile to liberty; he is always in alliance with the despot, abetting his abuses in return for protection to his own."

"Fix reason firmly in her seat, and call to her tribunal every fact, every opinion. Question with boldness even the existence of a God; because, if there be one, he must more approve of the homage of reason, than that of blindfolded fear....Do not be frightened from this inquiry by any fear of its consequences. If it end in a belief that there is no God, you will find incitements to virtue on the comfort and pleasantness you feel in its exercise and in the love of others which it will procure for you."

"Christianity...[has become] the most perverted system that ever shone on man....Rogueries, absurdities and untruths were perpetrated upon the teachings of Jesus by a large band of dupes and importers led by Paul, the first great corrupter of the teaching of Jesus."

"...that our civil rights have no dependence on religious opinions, any more than our opinions in physics and geometry."


James Madison (the fourth President of the United States)

Memorial and Remonstrance Against Religious Assessments:
"Religious bondage shackles and debilitates the mind and unfits it for every noble enterprise....During almost fifteen centuries has the legal establishment of Christianity been on trial. What have been its fruits? More or less, in all places, pride and indolence in the clergy; ignorance and servility in laity; in both, superstition, bigotry, and persecution."

Additional quote from James Madison:
"Religion and government will both exist in greater purity, the less they are mixed together."


Benjamin Franklin

From Franklin's autobiography, p. 66:
"My parents had given me betimes religious impressions, and I received from my infancy a pious education in the principles of Calvinism. But scarcely was I arrived at fifteen years of age, when, after having doubted in turn of different tenets, according as I found them combated in the different books that I read, I began to doubt of Revelation itself."

From Franklin's autobiography, p. 66:
"...Some books against Deism fell into my hands....It happened that they wrought an effect on me quite contrary to what was intended by them; for the arguments of the Deists, which were quote to be refuted, appeared to me much stronger than the refutations, in short, I soon became a thorough Deist."


Thomas Paine

From The Age of Reason, pp. 89:
"I do not believe in the creed professed by the Jewish church, by the Roman church, by the Greek church, by the Turkish church, by the Protestant church, nor by any church that I know of....Each of those churches accuse the other of unbelief; and of my own part, I disbelieve them all."

From The Age of Reason:
"All natural institutions of churches, whether Jewish, Christian, or Turkish, appear to me no other than human inventions, set up to terrify and enslave mankind, and monopolize power and profit."

From The Age of Reason:
"The most detestable wickedness, the most horrid cruelties, and the greatest miseries that have afflicted the human race have had their origin in this thing called revelation, or revealed religion."

From The Age of Reason:
"What is it the Bible teaches us? -- rapine, cruelty, and murder."

From The Age of Reason:
"Loving of enemies is another dogma of feigned morality, and has beside no meaning....Those who preach the doctrine of loving their enemies are in general the greatest prosecutors, and they act consistently by so doing; for the doctrine is hypocritical, and it is natural that hypocrisy should act the reverse of what it preaches."

From The Age of Reason:
"The Bible was established altogether by the sword, and that in the worst use of it -- not to terrify but to extirpate."

Additional quote from Thomas Paine:
"It is the duty of every true Deist to vindicate the moral justice of God against the evils of the Bible."


Ethan Allen

From Religion of the American Enlightenment:
"Denominated a Deist, the reality of which I have never disputed, being conscious that I am no Christian."

The founding fathers were not Christians. . .
Is America a Christian nation?
The U.S. Constitution.

This and that.

You might wonder why I write all these posts all of a sudden. Well, this is my third day being sick. I feel like I have a fever but the thermometer says otherwise. These days I only get this sick about once a year so I hope this is it and that I keep fresh the rest of 2009.

It has dawned on me how boring it is to be home with nothing to do. I did manage to read some a couple of days ago but in general I avent been able to. What I have done is watching loads of football (the kind of football where the participants actually use their feet to kick the ball). I went to a game some days ago with friends and I got into it. I never really cared alot even though I do have a favorite team and all. However the game I went to combined with me having loads of time being home and sick made me watch it more. Been watching about 5 matches. 4 champions league and 1 från the swedish league and Im getting into it. I will attend a game on Monday as well. I hope Im well enough to enjoy it by then.

I answered an add that a band had put on the internet about possibly becoming a bass player for them. When they found out I played in another band they said that they wanted someone who would focus whole heartedly on their band. Ah come on... Just because I play in two bands doesnt mean time has to be taken from either of them. Sounds kind of like when James Hetfield didnt want Jason Newstedt to do anything outside of Metallica. I guess thats their loss...

I got myself google analytics to gain stats from this page. So far it seem like my left hand path posts gather most internet traffic. And here I am writing diary like posts. We'll see if I can manage to throw something new together on the LHP topic soon.

On the importance of production.

This is just a link to an already existing piece but its a very good one and it explains on a low level why and how the production of an album is important. It all stems from the complete flop of Metallicas Death Magnetic in terms of the sound. It was awful. This article isnt so much focused on that but it does indeed touch upon that as well.

Was there anything wrong with the recording of the new Metallica album? How did Led Zeppelin revolutionize recording rock? Why do newer albums sound louder? For these questions and more, clink the link and discover why the production on albums matter! Read more...

New poll!

So I finally created a new poll. Itsreally simple this time around. 2 choices, not multiple answers allowed (since it wouldnt make any sense). The question is if you are a moral absolutist or a moral relativist. For those not familiar with the terms in question you can do some basic research on them here and here.

The usefullness of emptiness

Thirty spokes converge upon a single hub,
It is the hole in the center that the use of the cart hinges.
We make a vessel from a lump of clay,
It is the empty space within the vessel that makes it useful.
We make doors and windows for a room,
But it is these empty spaces that make the room livable.
Thus, while the tangible has its advantages,
It is the intangible that makes it useful.

I had a dream.

I havent been here for a long time now - well long in the internet time frame at least. I fell asleep on the couch yesterday afternoon after a run and decided to go straight to bed when I woke up around 09:00 PM. So I woke up around midnight and felt awake but realized I had to go back to sleep. I then decided to get out of bed at 04.00 AM when I woke up the next time. At that point in time I had a a strange dream.

I dreamt that I was back in my parents house and that I was still back in regular school. My mother tried to help me with mathematical problem but started shouting when I didnt understand what she said and claimed it was my fault. My father sided with me but as the dream progressed he also turned on me and claimed I would loose my own place because I didnt have the ability to sort my bills. Or maybe he said I didnt have them sorted and that I would loose all I had.

Now I have no problem with either of my parents but I think it symbolized my fears at this moment in time. I picked up school again to try to finish my candidate exam. Im doing alright and Im probably doing better than I think I am. The goal is however to keep on studying abroad. When I was last in school they offered us to apply for a school in manchester I believe it was. If that is still something I can do I would love it. So my dream might connect these two, one being worry about school and the other worry about leaving my home. A home which I did spend the past 1.5 years to look good. And I like it so its not that I just need to get away. At least Im counting on getting my money back and then some when I sell it. Or maybe I will rent it out. That would work out nicely if I could trust the person getting it. And maybe there is a third aspect to it being to move away from my family. I live very close to all of them and get along with them just fine. Im sure there wouldnt be a big problem or anthing if I did move (for me or for them) but its one of those stupid things I worry about beforehand.

Yes, life aint easy right now. Well it hasnt been for a long time but now its put up or shut up time for me which might be why I havent given the blog so much thought.

To be right and to move on.

Today I woke up early to make something for lunch later on in the day. Alot transpired yesterday and I feel empty yet quite satisfied. Its weird really how things happen. Someone let me down but I did kind of expect it so it didnt hit that hard. Its a shame though, I dont think she can help herself and in the end she ends up hurting people and then herself (even though she might not see that herself). I cant help to think how much better her life would be if she could be honest because when hanging out she is really nice and easy to talk to. Ah well, I cant do anything about it and my best guess is that she wont reply to my tries to contact her. So I guess this is good riddance and good bye. Im one experience richer and Im happy that me being careful and not get into things to much paid off. It kind of reassured that I wasnt off base. See you in hell miss ;)

Furthermore I have a good idea on my next philosophical post for the blog which will probably be about change. As usual the post will probably be influenced alot by eastern thought as well as western esotericism or left hand path pilosophy in one way or another.

I dont know when or if I have the time though. I decided to pick up my studies a few weeks back and registered. When I spoke to my teacher he immediately asked if I was interested in going for a phd. It gave me lots of ideas. Last time I was studying we got a few alternatives for further studies. One was in England (I believe it was in Manchester) and if they have something similar this time around and if things work out I will probably do something with it. And I know a couple of people in England who I have never met so it would be a good opportunity to start a relation t them in a non-online manner.

I would actually love to get paid to study and then getting away and try smething new is something I really need and I think the experience would be a good one for sure. Besides it would mean that I leave my current job which is close to my home, pay me alright and gives alot of security but is no future really.

I was also getting into alot of the norwegian black metal scene again the last week or so. It contains some really good suff and is actually very diverse and even if the scene often seems close minded its usually only the fans perspective. The bands are often quite experimental and they differ alot individually from eachother. My latest purchases have included Immortals "at the heart of winter", Mayhems "grand decleration of war", Gorgoroths "ad majorem sathanas gloriam" as well as Burzums "hvis lyset tar oss". Quite a far way from my last purchases that included Verdis "aida" and Miles Davis "bitches brew". Hey, diversity in music is a strength... :)

Nature

I took these photos today. These are all surrounding I pass by in work from time to time. I have planned to photograph them for a long time but it wasnt until today that I actually did so. Im no proffesional and my camera isnt of the expensive kind but I am satisfied with what I got. Nature can indeed be impressive:

Poll results.

These are the results of the poll. I was thinking of a more simple approach with the next poll with just a couple of answer alternatives. I just have to find a good question first.

Which kinds of music do you enjoy?

Blues 1 (7%)

Classical 3 (21%)

Country 2 (14%)

Dansband 1 (7%)

Electronic 4 (28%)

Folk 5 (35%)

Hip-hop 1 (7%)

Jazz 3 (21%)

Latino 1 (7%)

Metal 12 (85%)

Pop 2 (14%)

R&B 1 (7%)

Reggae 1 (7%)

Rock 11 (78%)


Number of votes: 14

How to cook an egg with a penn!

I have been very bad at updating this blog. I have some ideas for future posts in the "wisdom" category but I dont feel like going to deep into that just now since my ideas for posts arent that positive. And right now I am kind of positive so Im not in the right state of mind to bury myself in deep negative stuff.

After some weirdness and misunderstandings (and me being abit plump) in the planning stages a friend of mine came over for the weekend. This was the first time we met - yeah, Im a computer child I make my friends online ;) - and things turned out very good. Whatever differences we had had online they were all blown away in real life.

I had a very good time actually and will keep alot of good memories of this weekend. It was definately a good thing for me to do and Im glad it worked out.

See you again soon miss G?

A day in the life of....

This is just something I thought as quite funny.

This morning I started my day by insulting my mother in public, then punched out my father, my brother, and my sister. Then I gathered up all my clothes, sold them to a second-hand store, and with the proceeds bought a used Uzi and 50 rounds of ammunition. Next, I went down to the animal shelter and injected all the dogs with a drug that caused them to go insane and dive into the nearby canal where they all drowned. By this time I was hungry, so I went over to my neighbor's apple orchard and burned it down, because I wanted an orange and there weren't any. On the way home, I stopped at the local steel mill to discuss my philosophy of life with some of the guys. They laughed at me and said to stow it, so I tossed them all into the blast furnace. That night I discovered my son looking at a copy of Playboy. Concerned for his future welfare, I cut off his right hand. What historical character did my activities today most resemble?

Genghis Khan
Charles Manson
Adolph Hitler
Jesus Christ

Church of the Churchless

I just thought I'd add some more attention to this new link I added to a blog called "Church of the Churchless". It contains some very interesting reading and alot of it resonates well with me. Its based on a more eastern approach whch I of course like but it also critiques some of the traditional ideas.

Melek Taus

This post will be written in Swedish because it deals with a swedish radio show.

Idag rapporterade P1's "Människor och Tro" om Yaziderna. En folkgrupp och religion som ofta kopplas samman med ockultism och Satanism av både utövare, experter och motståndare. Mycket missförstådda är de och det här programmet klargör en del av dessa missuppfattningar. Det torde vara klart att dessa människor har en egen religion som inte är egentlig Satanism. Hursomhelst är det mycket intressant. Radioprogrammet kan fungera som en kort introduktion tll ett ämne som är mycket invecklat. Programmets hemsida hittar ni här, och inslaget börjar ca 8 minuter in.

Copper Wimmin

This is a song that someone, who I am starting to get closer to, recomended to me. She said it made her think of her and me and when I heard it it really hit me. The vocal delivery is beautiful and the lyrics hits me straight in the heart. This might be one of the strongest songs I have ever heard actually and I would like to recomend it to anyone out there.

I know you've been hurt
Many a' time before
Your heart bleeds rivers
Deep enough to drown
Thought I could be the one
To swim against the current
Swim against the force
The force that pulls one down

But no matter how hard I try
I can't seem to win this fight
I seem to be further behind
Than I was when I met you

I know that you choose
Where you want to be
Choose the heart of gold
And not the one for free
Choose the heart of the past
Belonging not to me

But no matter how hard I try
I can't seem to win this fight
I seem to be further behind
Than I was when I met you
No matter how hard I try
I can't seem to win this fight
I seem to be further behind
Than I was when I met you

Stairway to heaven

Made by blackgarlic.

Iconoclasm

I have a document where I copy quotes I come by from around the internet. I just read through some of them and came by this one which I found interesting:

I really think many of you put way too much stock in the word Satanism, and being "Satanic"! Quit being a Satanist and grow yourselves outside the title. The very philosophy of this very base religion is to cast off that which has no value and grow oneself. I submit that the title "Satanism" has no value.

Satanism stagnates because the people who wear it as a title are stagnant in the title. Satanism is personal to each individual, thus if there is nothing new its because we are lazy and have not sought anything new. If you truly have followed an idea to its fullest conclusion, cast it aside for something fuller.

Quit being Satanists. Religious titles are nothing but food for our egos. It is when you can mold yourselves into any idea that you can really begin to expand. I meant what I said: Become Christian for a while! When you can become your own antithesis at will you will be astounded at what you find.

This post was made by someone going by the name of birdland at the 600 club forums. I actually find this very educating and its an approach I naturally take to this myself. Allthough I have to admit it often shows with me wantng to fit into a label or category. Things would be so good if that were to happen. It would truly be the easy way. However it never happens and I know it probably never will.

I often find myself reading things and really liking one or a few ideas and try to justify the rest based on these ideas. Of course it never happens but I always understand that. But every time I pick up a book Im ready to plunge deep into it and I try to be as open as I can and I hope I will find that philosopher or thinker that resonates with me 100%. As I said above that has never ever happened and if it will I might be scared to confront it. How freaky would that be.

I think Im to strong of an individual to ever accept just one perspective without adding my own thoughts and incorporate other ideas and traditions into it.

I just read the newest chapters of Michael Aquinos unfinished history on the Temple of Set. It dealt with the Ronald K. Barrets policies that he introduced to the temple once he became a high priest why it happened and why it chocked the temple and made it lose so many members (from around 200 to just 31 active Setians in 1982). It was an extensive test much based on litterature study from a fixed and set reading list. He might have had good intentions and I understand how he wanted to produce something special of the members that he was the leader of. But as Aquino put it, its hard to herd a group of cats. This approach seemed to me to be about molding everyone in the same way. The initiation wasnt being personal anymore but collective and the importance was with a fixed set of books.

This is the way I feel strangeled by labels. They are to often so exclusive that they become limiting. I just heard a interview with Peter H. Gilmore of the Church of Satan. Despite my main philosophy being more in terms with Anton LaVey than with the Temple of Set I just cant deal with the LaVeyans praise of their dead leader and past accomplishments (and indeed history revisionism as well). Nothing new has come from that organisation in years and years and even Anton wrote just 5 books. Its static and meaningless and afraid to include new influences. In this way I find the Temple of Set way more beneficial and interesting. Although because of my disagreements with their core philosophy I could never be a member of their organisation.

In my first serious search for philosophy end religion I took a stand against Christianity. I was never raised in a very christian way and I wasnt constrained by direct influence of christian rules but I somehow felt the need to break free from its chains. This was the most important charachteristic of Satan as I saw it back then (and still do but in another way - or more evolved way of thinking).

In the past few years the motto of "questioning all things" had gone from questioning Christianity to questioning Satanism. This is what I think the aove quote refers to. By changing the outlook one can learn alot about the label one wears. Now I didnt choos ethe christian perspective since Im familiar with that already. I instead coose to go deeper into eastern metaphysics and I learned more about Satanism that way when I compared the to than I ever did by re-reading The Satanic Bible, The Diabolicon or whatever other book/essay there is on Satanism.

My main problem with Satanism is the claiming of a symbol (or symbols) of change, of chaos in its metaphysical meaning, of becoming but never actually do anything. Well Im sure alot of people are actively seeking to develop but to many are just parroting words written down a long time ago. But that might be the nature of the beast. People are lazy and want comfort and taking the easy way. This is why I can see the logic in this point that the Cavacante la Tigre blog recently described.

16 random things about me.

This is something I wrote for facebook. A friend wrote me 16 random things about her and the rules was to write her back with 16 random things about me as well as send it on to 16 other people. Given my nature I gave this alot of thought instead of just sitting down and writing 16 things off the top of my head. I think it turned out in a way that can be compared to a tattoo only less permamnent. Its a print of where I am just now and what is going through my head. Its pretty short and has no real structure but I thought it would be a good idea to re-publish these on my blog to keep it alive. So here we go:

1. I am often so caught up in my own "thing" that I cant understand how others cant even understand me - even if I dont demand that they have to agree with me.

2. Because of the above Im much of a lone wolf, for good and bad, and very few people really know me (if anyone these days).

3. I almost never read fiction. I tend to be bored with it and not think it has any significant value. I prefer books on philosophy and whatever connects to that.

4. I am an elitist but I cant live up to my ideals because they are too high and Im to lazy.

5. I think ignorance can be a blessing because that often means that youre happy. Knowledge on the other hand tends to be a heavier load and more often leads to unhapiness. Of course I always seek knowledge and tend to not be as carefree and do not take things in a very easy and relaxed manner.

6. I still love pro-wrestling. Its easy and it speaks to the most basic human instincts and it works as an escape from reality for me. Or as a return to an easier reality.

7. If I had to choose I would rather be mute than deaf or blind.

8. I wish I could start all over again and embrace the things I may not have dared to embrace in the past.

9. I strongly dislike people who claim that they listen to any kind of music. It usually means that they listen to anything that the radio burps out for them to consume. If asked if they like death metal, jazz fusion or opera they either dont know the genre or say they dont like it.

10. I on the other hand have a diverse taste in music but would never say "I like everything" or alike because I dont want to be categorized with those people I described above. The stuff thats been playing the most for me recently has been Rome (neofolk), Giuseppe Verdi (opera), Anthrax (thrash metal), Wardruna (folk), Weather Report (jazz fusion) and Black Sabbath (heavy metal/hard rock).

11. I cant really go out to bars/clubs because if I do after a while the music sounds distorted in my ears and I can never really hear what others are saying even if they are standing right next to me. I think its combination of loud music and so much other sounds. I think my ears have a hard time concentrating when there is to much and to loud sounds.

12. I dwell on things for way to long even if there is no reason for it. I really wish I could move on easier but I cant and I have to accept that.

13. I have a few dreams I'd like to come true but I am at the same time afraid to loose my comfort. The ironic thing is that much of what I want to get away from is the comfort and predictability of my life.

14. My main philosophical foundations for metaphysics tend to lie with Heraclitus work "fragments" and it is added to by concepts from eastern metaphysics (mahakali in vamachara tantra, sunyata in buddhism, tao in taoism), nietzsches worldview and ancient myths of now dead religions (ginnungagap in ancient norse tradition for example).

15. Despite me drawing influence from theistic religions and systems I myself am an atheist who like to describe the world in a theistic language to personalize it. Nietzsche also did it with Apollo and Dionysus.

16. I am to serious to often. Hey, take a look at the points above and tell me otherwise ;)

Update - Januray 28, 2009

I havent written much in a long time now. I dont have any particular reason. I have been busy and have also been doing alot of thinking and some things may change my future quite soon. Alot going on at the moment both in the objective and subjective universe as Dr. Aquino would say ;)

I have a few ideas for posts but I havent decided on what to use or if to use any at all. We'll see.

I also thought about creating a new blog that would be like a diary of sorts. But I probably would keep it anonymous so I would not post the link on this blog if that happens. But as with everything else, I dont know what will happen with that.