2/28/2008

The girl of my dreams

Now I realize this is part of something I have already quoted in this blog but over the past few days it has become increasingly important for my recovery. Now Im still sad at times and I can feel really bad. I still fantasize and daydream about my ex but now I always have this in mind:

Look, what you imagined with your girl is just a DREAM. Based on things you imagine in your head, not based on what's actually there. I've been there, the dream is always beautiful and perfect. But she's not the person in your dream. OR else she'd be with you now.


And you know what its true and its something that I can both understand rationally and emotionally. She really isnt my dream girl if she doesnt want to actually be with me. Believe it or not but it does help me keeping my head up at least a little bit further than I did before. Its still a pain in the ass sometimes, especially in the mornings but this does make things a little bit better. I even added part of the quote just under the blog "headline". Its that important to me at this moment.

Right now I am getting used to the thought of not having this special girl with me in my future (at least not as a girlfriend or wife or anything of the sort). At this moment I cant see how anyone could replce her or the dream I had about how things would eventually turn out. However I have gotten loads of advice over the past few days and they all seem to say that I will come over this and find someone else who I will look upon as better than what I have had thus far with my ex. I just hope they are right.

2/25/2008

With a little help from my (talkbass) friends

I made a post on the Talkbass forums about my problems. I wasnt sure if it was the right thing to do or if someone would actually care. But now Im very happy that I did write and ask for help and advice. There were two posts especially that put smiles on my face and really connected with me. I would like to quote them both here.

This post was made by the user called ubado:

First of all, I just like to say... my heart goes out to ya... most cats have been through those "hard to forget" breakups.

I'd gather that the age isn't the problem... if she wants kids, and you want kids... then her ticking baby clock is a moot point. It most likely boils down to the "Long Distance Relationship". They just don't work! For a short time sure... but not for the long run.

The idea that "distance makes that heart grow fonder" is complete BS!

I'm not gonna candy coat this... you will always love her... you will always wonder "what if"... but it doesn't mean that there isn't someone out there that can make you happy.

I myself have "the one that got away" in the back of my mind... but I've been married for almost 10 years and couldn't imagine myself not being married to her for another 10 (after that... I'm gonna trade her in for a newer model... instead of getting a Red Sports Car ). All kidding aside... you will find another. Who knows, maybe she'll be the best thing that has ever happened to you. I know mine has.

Just know that many of us have felt the same way about someone... the pain will pass... the memories will remain... but all in all... You'll get through it.

Buck up little camper. There's other fish in the sea... you just gotta do some more fish'n. Maybe you'll snag one you can "mount" up aginst a wall.
This post was made by disenchant:

It's hard being in that situation, I've been there myself.

The hardest realization is that a relationship takes two willing people. If she is not willing--you don't have a relationship! Plus, if she can't see all the wonderful things about you, then it might sound cliché to say, but she doesn't deserve you. And do you really want a relationship with someone who doesn't want you?

A good friend of mine was in love with his high school sweetheart and always envisioned them married. He asked her and she turned him down. TWICE! She cheated on him, treated him like dirt and he kept coming back. Finally he "convinced" her to marry him.

He's married to her, just like he dreamed. But it's hardly a dream. He's miserable, she doesn't *really* want to be with him and spends a lot of time with her friends. Who knows if she's cheating on him still? He works long hours, filling up the time she is not home. He was a bassist, and gave up playing because he just couldn't put his heart into things anymore. Sometimes they go on vacation. She doesn't want kids, and he does. But he keeps trying to make the dream happen.

Look, what you imagined with your girl is just a DREAM. Based on things you imagine in your head, not based on what's actually there. I've been there, the dream is always beautiful and perfect. But she's not the person in your dream. OR else she'd be with you now.

I had met a guy that I thought was The One but he turned out to not want a serious relationship. I tried for a year to get back together with him to no avail. Finally I started looking elsewhere and that's when I met the TRUE man of my dreams, who wants the same things I do.

Don't talk to your girl at all. Every time you do it'll open up fresh wounds. Stop imagining her face in your dreams and find out within yourself what about the dream you really want. Chances are it's not HER, but qualities you want in a woman. Then seek out a woman who has those qualities, including the one that respects and loves you for who you are. She's out there, prolly looking for you right now.
I want to thank both of them for the lovely replies. As I said they put a smile on my face and made me want to stay in there a little bit longer. The whole thread can be read here.

Update

I have now transalted most of the blog to the english language. Only long posts in swedish is kept in the original language because of my laziness. I believe there are only 3 entries that still contain swedish. We'll see if I translate them another time.

Random thoughts on a rought day.

This blog was first meant to be a diary kind of thing but before I would publish anything I decided it would be my religious/philosophical outlet. However as my personal life has become more and more confusing to me I have felt the need to go more personal than before. I guess the blog is really here for me to write whatever I want and right now metaphysics isnt the top priority. Far from it. Right now mental health is the most important thing.

Yesterday I tried to make things right. I was making this one call to tells omeone I wanted her friendship still and that I was sorry our discussions had turned to arguing. One can say it didnt work out at all. I heard immediately that she expected another arguing session from me and while I tried to be as calm as I could we still drifted into the same old pattern again. I dont say it was her faul, it was a combination. I had hoped for a call to make things, if not right then at least ok for the time being. Maybe it was too early to try such a thing?

The past week or so have been very depressing for me. My feelings race like a rollercoaster on speed. I have cried, been angry and have been sad. And in between there has been times when things have been more ok. Mostly when something is distracting me (like a movie or tv series) or when I had dinner with my good friend Jocke. It was supposed to be a talk about my feelings and the whole situation Im currently dealing with but while we did speak of that we also stayed a long time at the resturant and had great talk about so many things. That did wonders for me that night. Thanks again for your support.

Today was rough at work though. I had a great sleep but felt really bad when I woke up. Loads of feelings of regret and pain. So when I came to work and I was placed somewhere I didnt want to I kind of got angry and I know people noticed (I dont shout or say bad things but I show it in other ways). Later on in the day I felt bad and told my boss Im going through a really rough time emotionally. I didnt tell him why but I felt he needed to know so he didnt think it was just a bad attitude or something like that.

That was pretty much what I had to say about today. No progress but less of a rollercoaster ride of feelings. Today everything has been equally sad in my head the whole day. I always long to get home but the loneliness of living alone is also getting at me. And Im not one to call people just to talk. As I said Jocke has been great but I cant call him every day when I feel bad.

Anyway thats it for now.

2/23/2008

A lot like love

This is your life right now, it wont wait for you to get back to your feet.

2/22/2008

Beliefnet Belief-O-Matic -- A personality quiz about your religious and spiritual beliefs

Now this is a test that is supposed to give you an idea of what kind of religious tradition your own throughts fit best into. I have found this test very enjoyable but sometimes its hard for me to pick one answer. I thought I would go through it here and explain why I choose the answers I choose:

1. What is the number and nature of the deity (God, gods, higher power)? Choose one.

Only one God--a corporeal spirit (has a body), supreme, personal God Almighty, the Creator.
Only one God--an incorporeal (no body) spirit, supreme, personal God Almighty, the Creator.
Multiple personal gods (or goddesses) regarded as facets of one God, and/or as separate gods.
The supreme force is the impersonal Ultimate Reality (or life force, ultimate truth, cosmic order, absolute bliss, universal soul), which resides within and/or beyond all.
The supreme existence is both the eternal, impersonal, formless Ultimate Reality, and personal God (or gods).
No God or supreme force. Or not sure. Or not important.
None of the above.



Now I have marked two alternatives and my own view is somewhere in between those two. While I agree that there is no God I'm not sure about what one might call a "supreme force". I tend to think that the only thing that is static is that everything is dynamic. All is change. This is the original chaos that minfests itself as order. Nothingness that is all things etc. Could this be called "supreme force"? Maybe, maybe not. I sure as hell dont think its personal or godlike or spiritual so that alternative is very wrong.

2. Are there human incarnation(s) of God (or of gods/goddesses)? Choose one.

God is (or gods/goddesses are) supreme, and no incarnations.
One incarnation.
Many (or countless) incarnations.
No particular incarnations because God is all and all are God (or God is in all).
No incarnations as there is no God. Or not sure. Or not important.
None of the above.


Now this is ultimately connected to the first question. As I see it everything is a manifestation of unchanging change. Therefore the all is one in that regard. So while saying that God is all is something I cannot accept since I really dislike the notion of a god or many gods the throught is appealing but on the concept of nothingness, chaos or change.

3. What are the origins of the physical universe and life on earth? Choose one.

As in the book of Genesis, God created a mature universe and mature life forms from nothing in less than 7 days, less than 10,000 years ago.
As in the book of Genesis, but "day" is not 24 hours, possibly refers to thousands (or even millions) of years, or to creation phases.
God is creating and controlling the phenomena uncovered by scientists. Or there are other spiritual explanations, but not in conflict with scientific discovery.
All matter and life forms are manifestations (or illusions) of the eternal Absolute (Ultimate Truth, Universal Soul or Mind, etc.).
Only natural forces (like evolution) and no Creator or spiritual forces. Or not sure. Or not important.
None of the above.


Now one should be able to see the thought pattern that goes into the answering of this question. I belive its all "natural forces" or something that is closely related to it (if the word nature isnt quite good enough). But all things are indeed manifestations or illusions of change. And remember "illusion" doesnt mean something doesnt exist only that something isnt what it may seem to be at first sight.


4. What happens to humans after death? Choose one.

Souls are judged immediately for a foretaste of heaven or hell. At the final judgment, God (or Christ) will resurrect and judge all for heaven or hell. (Or souls may also be judged for punishment and/or purification before heaven.)
Death results in unconsciousness until, at the final judgment, God (or Christ) will raise the living righteous to heaven; resurrect and destroy the wicked on earth; return the righteous to a paradisal earth for eternity.
Souls don't survive death. God (or Christ) will resurrect the righteous at the final judgment for eternity in heaven or on a paradisal earth; the wicked will remain dead.
The soul's spiritual development continues after death so that all may eventually experience the indescribable joy of closeness to God. Hell is not a place but the tormented state of remoteness from God.
Rebirths occur (continually, or until all life's lessons are learned and one merges with the life force, or until complete enlightenment and eternal bliss are attained).
There is definitely an afterlife, but the specifics cannot be known or are unimportant--most important is one's conduct in life.
No afterlife; no spiritual existence beyond life; no literal heaven and hell. Or not sure. Or not important.
None of the above.


Now this one was really easy. No afterlife at all. Thats a firm belief of mine.

5. Why is there terrible wrongdoing in the world? Choose one.

Humans inherited sinfulness, or a damaged nature, or tendency to yield to Satan's temptations from Adam and Eve, who committed the original sin against God.
Wrongdoing results from God-given free will plus a weak side, or a drive to satisfy personal needs, which sometimes results in wrongful choices (and/or vulnerability to Satan's temptations).
Ignorance of one's true existence as pure spirit and as one with the Universal Truth (or soul, mind, etc.) can lead to wrongdoing.
Not listening to the voice of God, who resides within all, can lead to wrongdoing.
Egoism (self-importance) leads to desire, craving, and attachments, which can lead to unwholesome thoughts and behavior, i.e., greed, hate, and violence.
No supernatural or spiritual reasons. Human nature, psychology, sociology, criminology, etc., explain wrongdoing. Or not sure. Or not important.
None of the above.

Yeah there isnt a big spiritual reason behind "wrongdoing in the world". What is wrongdoing anyway and according to who. I am a moral relativist and therefore the whole question isnt applicable.

6. Satan's presence results in much suffering.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not applicable.



While I am influence by a tradition that likes to view Satan as that dak evolving force in nature. The state of ungchanging change et al I always answer "not applicable" since I know this isnt the Satan the test is refering to.

7. Why is there so much suffering in the world?
Choose ALL that apply.

The original disobedience of Adam and Eve caused all mankind to inherit mortality, which includes bodily imperfection, illness, and decay.
Suffering is part of God's divine will, plan, or design (to discipline, test, challenge, strengthen faith, strengthen character, promote moral growth, or for reasons that we cannot or may not know).
Suffering is a state of mind (or illusion); only our spiritual nature is real.
Spiritual or cosmic imbalance and disharmony may result in suffering.
Unwholesome thoughts and/or deeds (greed, hatred, and violence) in this or prior lives return as suffering (karma).
None of the above; human suffering has nothing to do with the supernatural or karma.


This one is easy as well. Se the above answer.

Respond to the following (Questions 8-12) based on how you believe a person attains salvation, exaltation, eternal reward, spiritual liberation/enlightenment, spiritual harmony, merger with God, etc.

8. Worship:

The Supreme Power, God, or Gods.
God--three persons of one essence.
God the Father, His Son, the Holy Spirit--each a distinct essence.
Not Applicable.



9. Baptism (or initiation) ceremonies:

Required.
Not required.
Not Applicable.




10. Regularly confess or repent:

All sins/wrongs to a cleric.
All sins/wrongs, but not necessarily to a cleric.
Not Applicable.


11. Doing good works (deeds) and acting compassionately is:

Necessary.
Not necessary.
Not Applicable.




12. Choose ALL statements below that represent your beliefs.

Adhere strictly to the rites, practices, precepts, commandments, prohibitions, laws, sacraments, or ordinances of the faith to be rewarded after life.
All, even the wicked, are rewarded after life (e.g., go to heaven, merge with God) as God(s) is infinitely good and forgiving.
Extinguish all cravings, attachments, and ignorance, or rid oneself of all impurities, to become fully enlightened.
Learn all life's lessons through rebirths.
Realize your true nature as purely spirit (or soul) and not body, as one with the Absolute, Universal Soul.
Live very simply; renounce worldly goals and possessions.
Tap the power of the Ultimate (God, or the divine) through intercessory methods such as psychics, channeling, tarot cards, crystals, magic.
Humankind is "saved" through human effort rather than through religious or spiritual means.

One really has to save oneself. There is no redeemer to save you. Only you can save you and other people or animals or whatever may be a help in that process. But then again I dont like the choice of words here. Saved from what exactly?

13. Elective abortion should be accepted (not proclaimed or treated as immoral).

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.



Now this isnt fundamental in the way I view the world. However I find this important. It should be ok to abort a pregnancy is one so wishes.

14. Homosexual behavior should be regarded as immoral or out of harmony.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.



The same as above.

15. Roles for women and men should be prescribed.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.



The same as above.

16. Divorce and/or remarriage should be restricted or punished or condemned.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.

The same as above.


17. Social betterment programs (e.g., equality, anti-poverty, education) should be fundamental.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.





18. Nonviolence (e.g., pacifism, conscientious objector) should be fundamental.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.


19. Prayer, meditation, or spiritual healing practices should be favored to the exclusion of conventional health treatment (for all serious conditions or certain types of serious conditions).

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.

Im not in favor of this. While I believe things of this nature can help a person mentally if he or she really believes it I dont think it has any objective reality or substance and thus cannot really cure anything.


20. Revering nature or the environment should be fundamental.

Agree.
Disagree.
Not Applicable.


I ave always wanted to save nature from being destroyed and exploited. Of course it really isnt a required belief in my own personal philosophy of metaphysics but I find it very important. I have ever since I started to think about it (which I believe was back in 1994).

Depression and suicide

I have been thinking of making this blog more international for a while so this will be my first post all in english (except for earlier quotes and such that were already written in english).

I will start things off on anegative note. Lately I haven't been feeling very good. It's been a rollercoaster ride of different emotions and thoughts. I just learned that the woman I love is engaged. The whole situation is complex and filled with misunderstandings between the two of us but I always thought things would turn out good between us in the end. When I heard about this it came as a shock and it really felt like my heart was ripped out. Since then I have had a hard time controling my feelings. In my head it was supposed to be her and me and since our relationshp was a long distance one I was all set, metally to leave my current life with work, my band and my country to make this relationship work. I was so sure it would happen within the next year or so when we had sorted things out but now things look very different and it feels like I've lost all things I ever worked for. Despite this things has been going well in my life. I bought a appartment which slowley but surely starts to look really good. I got a full-time job and also got the most out of the raise of my monthly sallary just days ago. But this seemed to overshadow it all.

Since this blog thus far has been very religious/philosophical in its approach I think this fits in well with both the blog and of course the contex. Most of my foundation lies within LaVeyan Satanism. I may not be able to call myself a LaVeyan or maybe not even a Satanist anymore but the very core or starting point of my philosophical experimentation lies within Anton LaVeys work. One of the things I really agreed with him upon was the view of life and death. While one should accept death as necessary, and in many ways what gives life its meaning, suicide was looked upon very negatively;

It is a well known fact that many people die simply because they give up and just don't care anymore. This is understandable if the person is very ill, with no apparent chance for recovery. But this often is not the case. Man has become lazy. He has learned to take the easy way out. Even suicide has become less repugnant to many people than any number of other sins. . .

Life is the one great indulgence; death the one great abstinence. To a person who is satisfied with his earthly existence, life is like a party; and no one likes to leave a good party. By the same token, if a person is enjoying himself here on earth he will not so readily give up this life for the promise of an afterlife about which he knows nothing. . .

Self-sacrifice is not encouraged by the Satanic religion. Therefore, unless death comes as an indulgence because of extreme circumstances which make the termination of life a welcome relief from the unendurable earthyl existence, suicide is frowned upon by the Satanic religion. . .

This has always been my belief but its very scary once you realize that when you yourself are really depressed and in the middle of something where you can see no way out from how ones own morals and ethics can be thrown out of the window. This is hard for me to write but I have felt suicidal from time to time after all this happened. I have felt like my whole life has gone down the drain. All this because I have lost my one big love in life. Somehow Im very capable of seeing that not everything in my life is bad. As I said I got a raised sallary, I have a new appartment, Im in the middle of recording a album with my band, I have a family that loves me etc. Somehow all this is thrown out of the window and I cant help but to cry because I have lost the woman I love.

Now I believe most people have had thoughts about suicide but there is a huge difference between having them and realy having them. Im pretty sure, even during my depressions, that I wouldnt be able to take my own life. After all it would inflict huge pain on people who like me and I wouldnt ever be able to see if things will be getting better in the future. I do not believe in an afterlife so if I were to die I wouldnt know the difference so it would truly be a definite way out.

Now, sometimes I have actually been scared because I havent recognized myself in what I have been thinking. Its been like two sides of me in conflict with eachother. I am sure that my "good" side will win, it always does it seems but it still doesnt change the fact that its really scary when the bad side is strong. This is what I mean by it being a huge difference between having thought of suicide and really having thought about suicide. Im guessing the next step is even worse when the bad side really controls you and this is what ultimately leads a person to take his or her own life.

I am a firm believer in that suicide is wrong in almost all cases. Point blank its stupid. But I also know from my own experience how things sometimes seem so negative that it really hurts to be alive. My good side has already made up my mind. I wanna keep my friendship with my ex girlfriend. My reasoning is that if I cut all ties I wont ever see her again. If I keep in contact I ca still have a good time with her and quite frankly she knows me best out of anyone in the world. A friendship like that isnt built in rapid fashion and I want to nurture that relation to her. After all I dos till love her and I want, in some way, still be a part of her life.

2/09/2008

All is one

Did you ever say Yes to one joy? O my friends, then you said Yes to all woe as well. All things are chained and entwined together, all things are in love;
if you wanted one moment twice, if you ever said: ‘You please me, happiness, instant, moment!’ then you wanted everything to return!
you wanted everything anew, everything eternal, everything chained, entwined together, everything in love, oh that is how you loved the world,
you everlasting men, loved it eternally and for all time; and you say even to woe: ‘Go, but return!’ For all joy wants—eternity!

Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spoke Zarathustra

2/08/2008

Satanism and its relation to Christianity

I found an article by a person called Rex Monday. He wrote a article that among other things dealt with the relationship Satanism has with Christianity. I found his thoughts very interesting and they really point to some good information that not everyone might be ready to accept:

Since I have mentioned Christianity in passing, I will now deal with the question of the relationship between Christianity and Satanism. I make no bones of the fact that I was a Christian before I became a Satanist, as were, to varying degrees I suppose, my colleagues. I have seen, time and time again, the charge by modern neo-pagans that Satanists are merely inverted Christians. To some extent, this charge is fell-founded. The relationship between Christianity and Satanism is very much like the relationship between the various schools of Tantrism and orthodox Vedanta. After all, the tantric’s use of meat, wine, and sexual intercourse are only shocking within the context of orthodox belief. In the west, we think nothing of wining and dining as a prelude to sexual intercourse - providing of course that the lady pays! In the same way, Satanism rejects the Christian values of chastity, meekness, denial of pleasure and the flesh, and bending the knee to a God who is all-pervasive. What the neo-pagans miss of course, is that they themselves are as influenced by Christian values as anyone else. It is too easy by far to simply embrace something which seems to be the antithesis of normality, without examining how one is bound by those values which, on the surface, one is seemingly rejecting. Christian values have infected modern Satanic groups in much the same way. This can be seen in the way that modern exponents of Satanism have concerned themselves with ‘becoming strong, and crushing the weak’. This desire to project one’s own values onto other people masks a deep-seated insecurity, and is little more than the Christian desire to ‘save souls’ by another name. The Satanist does not merely ‘invert’ the Christian impulse to interminably bother other people, but overcomes it, so that he is not at all concerned with other people apart from his chosen colleagues. For myself, it is much more ‘satanic’ to have mastered the art of minding my own business, rather than setting myself up to pronounce the fate of other, ‘lesser’ mortals.

LaVey on Satanism.

I am not a LaVeyan Satanist anymore. Heck, it was a long time since I was. Nowadays I may not even want to call myself a Satanist at all. The main principles of his worldview is still something that lies close to my heart even though I have definately put a personal twist on them. Maybe even to the point where people might not recognize the origin. I also really dislike LaVeys organisation which, to a person who isnt a member, seemingly is made upp by pretentious people that likes to dress up and have their head up their own ass. Maybe that was harsh but thats how many of their official spokespeople come off.

This is a quote by LaVey which I happen to like:

My brand of Satanism is the ultimate conscious alternative to herd mentality and institutionalized thought. It is a studied and contrived set of principles and exercises designed to liberate individuals from a contagion of mindlessness that destroys innovation. I have termed my thought “Satanism” because it is most stimulating under that name. Self discipline and motivation are effected more easily under stimulating conditions. Satanism means “the opposition” and epitomizes all symbols of noncomformity. Satanism calls forth the string ability to turn a liability into an advantage, to turn alienation into exclusivity. In other words, the reason it’s called Satanism is because its fun, its acurate, and its productive.

Anton LaVey - the devils notebook (foreword).

The "Ur" rune


I have recently started to look through Thomas Karlsson book "Uthark - nightside of the runes" again. My interest grew as I came to the part where he explains the "ur" rune. Look at this:
Ur (u): The Ur rune denotes the primeval state and the origin. The Ur rune is the Ur (original)-ox or the Ur-cow which in many mths represent the state before creation. In Nordic mythology it is the cow Audhumbla. If we were to turn the Ur rune so that it would look like a normal "u" we can see how it illustrates the horns of the animal. From the udder of Audhumbla four rivers of milk are flowing, feeding the other primeval being Ymer. The rivers of milk are the inherent nourishing force of the original state that spreads out in the cardinal directions of space. From a saltstone clad with white frost Audhumbla licks out the god triad of Voden, Vile and Ve. The saltstone is the crystal shaped form in which gods and runes can be found. This is the potentiality of the original state which is actualized and manifested through the following runes of the Uthark. The crystal returns to the Hagal rune. The Ur rune also illustrated Ginnungagap, the wide-open crack of primeval chaos and the original emptiness. The Ur-rune is the womb from which everything is created and born.
Very interesting isnt it? I find it very inspiring to see its relation to other koncepts in different traditions around the world.

Satanism, djävulsdyrkan och legitimitet att en gren är mer sann än en annan.

Ja nu har jag varit i debatt igen på ett internetforum. Det är så ofta diskussionerna kommer in på Satanism kontra Djävulsdyrkan, likheter, skillnader och vem som har mer rätt till namnet Satanism - teisterna eller ateisterna/agnostikerna. Detta är vad jag skrev om ämnet:

http://www.flashback.info/showthread.php?t=603987&page=2

Ursprungligen postat av Fiant
Tillbaka till skolbänken, unge man. Det går inte att skilja på satanism och sk. djävulsdyrkan. Djävulsdyrkan är dessutom ett felaktigt begrepp och existerar endast pga fördomar och kunskapsbrist när det gäller teistisk satanism. Det du beskriver är pinsamt nog den typiska bilden som CoS har försök övertyga vilsna ungdomar med i ett par årtionden. Faktum är att den "satanism" som CoS och Belial.org/fd. svenska satanistkyrkan företräder inte är mer än ett sämre hopkok av idéplagiat. Det har inget med satan att göra, deras arketyp har inte heller något med det att göra och skulle lika passande kunnat ha kallats för "Tomten".


Även du måste läsa på. Både du och Dangerous_Mind försöker legitimera olika del ar av satanismen som den enda sanna. Så lätt är det givetvis inte. CoS har visst massor att göra med Satan (som jag skrivit om tidigare här se nedan) och det har också teistiska inriktningar. Om man själv är en del av någon gruppering tror man förståss på deras läror och anser dem då för sanna. För alla andra finns det massvis av inriktningar som alla legitimt kan gå under namnet Satanism precis som att alla religioner har flertalet inriktningar och tankeströmningar. Ofta kan de existera samtidigt, använda samma etikett men gå emot varandra totalt när det gäller läror. Detta gäller såväl kristendom och judendom som satanism och andra former av "ockulta religioner".

Satanismen har ingen historisk basis. Dvs det är inte som kristendomen som har en historisk bas och en text som beskriver påstådda händelser i historien. Kristendomen har sin grund, som en egen religion, i att jesus fanns, att han var/är Guds son, att han dog för människans synder osv. Detta är grunden i kristendomen och deras heliga bok beskriver, enligt de kristna själva, historiska händelser. Trots detta förekommer miljontals tolkningar om vad som är rätt och riktigt och hur man ska tolka bibeln.

Om vi går över till Satanismen så har den INGEN historisk bakgrund liknande den kristendomen har. Ordet Satanism har funnits i hundratals år men organiserad satanism verkar vara ovanlig ändå in på 1900-talet. Satanismen utvecklades dock och idag ser vi också hur andra kulturers kulter och liknande har eller fortfarande inspirerar sataniska strömningar. Men dessa kan vi inte med rätta kalla satanism (även om man som jag och andra tror att de kan ha samma källa). Att då uttala sig om vad som är äkta satanism eller ej blir praktiskt taget omöjligt. Om kristna har problem trots en skrift som faktiskt gäller alla kristna vad har då Satanismen? Satanismen har ingen gemensam grund alls och att därför tala om vilken gren som är mer eller mindre äkta ter sig väldigt idiotiskt.

Nu riktar jag kritiken mot dig som påstår att tesitisk satanism skulle vara mer sann eller korrekt gentemot CoS men betänk att jag fört debatt med CoS-anhängare som även de har försökt monopolisera Satanismen som begrepp.

Vidare är LaVeys satanism kraftigt inspirerad av vissa tidigare tänkare. Men helt ärligt, vem är inte det? Kan du säga något som verkligen är orginellt av de filosofier eller religioner som finns idag? Skillnaden är nog att CoS är ganska öppna med att de lånat väldigt mycket av sin filosofi från annat håll medan andra religioner håller tyst om det (så har det dock inte alltid varit angående CoS och deras öppenhet angående plagiat).

Vidare visar du på enorm okunskap när du påstår att "Det har inget med satan att göra, deras arketyp har inte heller något med det att göra och skulle lika passande kunnat ha kallats för "Tomten"". Det visar på en enorm brist på kunskap både vad Satan kan symbolisera och hur CoS använder arketypen Satan. Jag citerar mig själv från en annan tråd där jag skrev ett inlägg riktat till en person som i mångt och mycket verkade ha gått med på CoS's historiebeskrivning:

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Ursprungligen postat av TheInsane:
Jag har studerat Satanism på universitetsnivå och har varit delaktig och figurerat i dessa sammanhang sedan 1997. Jag är väl medveten om vad Satan står för inom LaVeys Satanism. Den har klara paraleller med den kristna Satan. Om du inte själv kan se det rekomenderar jag dig att läsa både bibeln och den sataniska bibeln.

Jag påpekade även förut att Satan inte ses som en entitet av den moderna satanismen men trots detta är deras SYMBOLISKA tolkning av Satan som "en avspegling av de mänskliga" (som du uttrycker det) starkt influerad av den kristna Satan. Varför skulle namnet annars användas?

Låt mig förklara närmare så att du kanske förstår. "Satan represents undefiled wisdom instead of hypocritical self-deceit" för inte detta tankarna till ormen i edens lustgård som bjuder människan på kunskapens frukt? Och ordet satans egentliga betydelse - "motståndare". Satan representerar Guds motståndare i kristendomen och Satan i Satanismen representerar i mångt och mycket motstånd mot det kristna tankesättet. Kristendomen förespråkar att man ska älska sin nästa och vända den andra kinden till. CoS Satanismen anser att man enbart ska älska de som förtjänar ens kärlek och att man ska slå tillbaka om man själv blir slagen. Sedan har vi dualismen där vissa drifter ska arbetas bort enligt kristendomen. Satansimen är dock accepterande av människans natur och förstår nödvändigheten av även destruktivitet (men absolut inte enbart detta). Utan mörker ingen ljus. Min tolkning liksom många andras är att kristen människosyn är dualistisk på flera plan medan Satanismen är icke-dualistisk då den accpterar alla våra driften och kans e värde i dem alla.

Sedan har vi de starka paralellerna att Satan kan tolkas som extremt individualistisk i Bibeln liksom i CoS's Satanism. I Bibeln vill Satan frigöra sig Guds lagar och regler och skapa egna regler för sig själv. Satanismen har samma strävan att göra sig fri från skadlig flockmentalitet och att skapa en egen sfär. Oftast enbart moraliskt och etiskt men inom CoS finns/fanns det också tankar om arificiell intelligens och "custom made enviroments" (se dokumentet "pentagnal revisionism" på CoS's hemsida).

Vidare finns det i Bibeln ett stycke där någon, i äldre tolkningar ofta Lucifer, förklarar att hans mål är att höja sin tron över Guds stjärnor. Även om sektionen i fråga antagligen handlar om kejsare Nero har den under lång tid fått symbolisera Satans och/eller Lucifers mål att själv härska. Detta är precis vad CoS också förespråkar. En ständig strävan efter att höja upp sig själv och bli sin egen Gud. Att höja sig så pass att man blir så autonom som man kan bli - precis som Satan i Bibeln.

Vidare finns en karaktär i bibeln som kopplas samman med Satan, åklagaren, som visserligen agerar å Guds vägnar men vars uppgift är att ifrågasätta människors tro. CoS förespråkar att man ifrågasätter alla ting och LaVey hyllar tvivlet i sin sataniska bibel.

Även tanken om att Satan är "denna världs prins" finns i CoS där Satan står för vital existens här och nu utan tankar på ett möjligt spirituellt liv efter detta.

I vissa något mer progressiva grenar av modern satanism är det också viktigt att Satan står för det rörliga, fria, kreativa, kaotiska etc precis som tt den bibliska kan tolkas Satan stå för det rörliga och dynamiska i kontrast till Gud - den statiska.

Jag hoppas att du förstår mer vad jag menar. Satan för CoS är starkt infuerad av kristendom men precis som du säger är det inte som en entitet. Men symbolen är laddad med kopplingar till den kristna Satan. Annars skulle LaVey aldrig ha valt Satan i första taget. Och om du fortfarande inte är övertygad kan jag gå in ännu djupare på ämnet.