Some notes.

As you can tell Im all healthy now which is why there was a slowing down in the posting compared to the amount of posts two weeks ago. Back at work means tired in the evenings but I hope to contribute more soon.

I made a Google Analytics account to see if people were really finding their way to this blog and to my surprise the blog has way more readers that I thought it had. The numbers arent amazing or anything but way more than the few I thought cared. Most based in Sweden, even though the blog is in english, but also from very varied parts of the world which is great. I just have a very low commentary rate on my posts and participation in my polls. I wonder why.

So anyway, I hope to be able to keep making people come back here and maybe to trick some new unexpecting victims into the Ephesos trap ;)

New poll!

So I finally created a new poll. Itsreally simple this time around. 2 choices, not multiple answers allowed (since it wouldnt make any sense). The question is if you are a moral absolutist or a moral relativist. For those not familiar with the terms in question you can do some basic research on them here and here.

Poll results.

These are the results of the poll. I was thinking of a more simple approach with the next poll with just a couple of answer alternatives. I just have to find a good question first.

Which kinds of music do you enjoy?

Blues 1 (7%)

Classical 3 (21%)

Country 2 (14%)

Dansband 1 (7%)

Electronic 4 (28%)

Folk 5 (35%)

Hip-hop 1 (7%)

Jazz 3 (21%)

Latino 1 (7%)

Metal 12 (85%)

Pop 2 (14%)

R&B 1 (7%)

Reggae 1 (7%)

Rock 11 (78%)


Number of votes: 14

Stairway to heaven

Made by blackgarlic.

Update - Januray 28, 2009

I havent written much in a long time now. I dont have any particular reason. I have been busy and have also been doing alot of thinking and some things may change my future quite soon. Alot going on at the moment both in the objective and subjective universe as Dr. Aquino would say ;)

I have a few ideas for posts but I havent decided on what to use or if to use any at all. We'll see.

I also thought about creating a new blog that would be like a diary of sorts. But I probably would keep it anonymous so I would not post the link on this blog if that happens. But as with everything else, I dont know what will happen with that.

New poll and some thoughts on friendship.

I'd like to start with a small note. I changed the poll. The was never satisfied with the political one since I honestly never have cared much for politics. I replaced it with a poll on which kind of music you most enjoy. Multiple answers are allowed of course.


Furthermore I have been thinking about something lately. Its basically loneliness but loneliness by choice. I have often considered myself to be a lone wolf. I have always had friends but usually just a few select ones. Right now that number is maybe 5 persons. Then I have some people I used to hang out with that I hope to regain some contact with and thats another 5 people maybe. Then there is the band but I pretty much only play music with them. And then there's friends friends that I can enjoy being around but arent that close to.

Anyways, this is what Im comfortable with. I have however realized something. I have never ever really relied on a friend until 5 years ago. That was when I met my ex girlfriend. yes the one I have a hard time getting over. I think I know why now. That was something that turned into a, for me, extraordinary friendship. I told her everything and we were in contact every day. It became a habit to tell her everything and anything that was on my mind. I never had that with anyone before. Not friends, not teachers in school and not my parents.

One of the hard parts with the break up was that now I had no one to talk to about these thing (no one that wouldnt get bored with listening to it anyway). That has been a huge thing for me. Unfortunately materializing in a negative way. The break up did cause me to get alot closer to two of my friends however which is good.

I never felt suffocated in my relationship but I can now feel it when contact with my friends get more intense. I mean I love them to death but Im just not the person who gives someone a ring and comes over for a cup of tea. I can feel restricted if things become to intense (and to intense to me probably aint nothing compared to what others think). If we go into town just to walk around and look through stores I can find myself being annoyed because things dont move along as fast as I'd like them to. Or maybe we go to a shop I dont have any interest in and I become restless and annoyed. I shut up about it of course, I can work in a team, but its just something I have become increasingly aware of.

Furthermore I start to notice small thing that annoys me about my friends if I spend to much time with them. One of my friends really wants to meet a new girl (he was dumped some months ago). And I hate it when he drinks and totally goes for it. Its so predictable and his attitude is "everyone should have a great time" but in reality he's closed in his own bubble and just care about pleasing himself and the girl or girls in question. If something non-comercial is being played on the stereo he's there changing it and saying "we should have music that suits everyone" not even thinking that the majority of people in the room probably prefer something a little more rock n' roll rather than some comercial pop stuff.

Now I dont want to create any bad feelings. I doubt any of them reads the blog but I have to say that I like em all. This is just something I have been thinking about lately. I guess its just as much a reflection of my short comings as it is of theirs. So no hard feeling if you read this alright? ;)

Random thoughts 15 November 2008

The blog has been quiet for some time but now I had the urge to let my feelings be known on a few things.

First off I was speaking to my mother yesterday about the issue of gay marriage. In Sweden we have 4 parties that joined in an alliance to rule the country. These are centrist and right wing parties. The opposition consists of one leftist party (formerly a communist party), one enviromental party as well as the largest single party (the social democrats). Now one party is againt the right for gays to marry. The problem lies with the word "äktenskap" (translation "marriage"). This pary is know as the christ democrats and while they to are way more secularised than they used to be they do have their roots in traditional christian values.

The feeling among these people is that God made man and woman to be with eachother and made marriage an institution between man and woman. Thus they are against gay marriage because they claim marriage as a word is something reflecting a union of man and woman not of man and man or woman and woman.

The other side claims that everyone has the same right to get married and show their love for eachother independent of what sex they are. They say love is love and nothing can stand against that.

Now where do I stand in all this? I think it is a non-issue really. Its just linguistics. Its all about one tiny word. I personally dont see the importance for either side to claim this word as their own. Get over it already!

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I was at a dinner with my colegues at work last weekend and some surprising facts were being brought up. I already knew that one of my co-workers used to be in the same class att school as the woman who played the lead role in the most classic swedish cult porno of all time, Fäbojäntan, but now I have yet another connection. A girl I work with told me how her grandmothers place was the actual place for filming this movie. They apparently had no idea what kind of movie this was and they were just happy to own the houses they used for a movie. s the story goes they invited their parents to the premiere (this was when pornos were being shown on the cinemy in Sweden) - apparently still not knowing what kind of movie it was. Sadly the girl I work with didnt know the reaction they had when they saw the actual movie. Still a great story!

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Tnoight is the big match in UFC with Randy Couture defending his heavyweight title against former pro-wrestler Brock Lesnar. While one has learned to never bet aainst Couture ever I really tink Lesnar has a chance here. However Lesnar is very much an untested fighter and we dont really know how much he has in him. He is a freak of nature. Very strong, very fast and heavy (outweighs Couture by 20 pounds I believe).

Now Couture has the routine and always goes in with great gameplans but he cant do what he's usually good at and thats controling his opponent close to his own body. Lesnar will be to strong for that. At the same time Couture has out-stricken a good striker such as Chuck Lidell (well at least he was on top for a long time and really only had the striking going for him).

I think Lesnar has a fair chance of winning but at the same time I wouldnt bet against Couture. I want Lesnar to win but man betting against Couture isnt very smart most of the time. besides somethime his age must show.

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And once again I was dealing with an ignorant person. It was in a thread where I wrote that I did indeed cry at the end of WrestleMania XX when Chris Benoit and Eddie Guerrero celebrated together. Best friends and bot world champions on their respective brand. Both their stories has now ended, both in tragic fashion but very different from eachother. Guerrero had a hear attack a few years ago and as a result Benoit broke apart. 1,5 years ago or so Benoit hung himself in his gym after having murdered his wife and son. I dont accepts what he did the last few days of his life but he was one of the greats - all time greats even - who's legacy is forever tarnished which is a damn shame.

In any case this person replied to my post with "So you get emotionally involved in something that has been planned from the start o_O?" My reply was:

Yes, just like people cry at the movies or laugh at a play in a theater. Whats so weird about that?

People usually discredit pro-wrestling for all the wrong reasons since they themselves also enjoy scripted shows but they never think of it that way.

I just hate when peple critize me for thing they themselves have no knowledge of. This person never did respond to my comment so I guess he got the point but Im still angry that I I have to make it all the time. Learn to think bastards!

Poll results.

This is the final result from the poll. While the response havent been overwhelming Im quite happy to see that the few who read this blog are from very different walks of life.

What are you (multiple answers are allowed)?

Atheist 3 (16%)

Agnostic 3 (16%)

Christian 0 (0%)

Jew 1 (5%)

Muslim 0 (0%)

Hindu 2 (11%)

Buddhist 2 (11%)

Taoist 1 (5%)

Satanist 4 (22%)

Pagan 3 (16%)

Other 6 (33%)

Number of votes: 18

Salvador Dali

I was recently out looking for something to put on my walls. They are still pretty empty even though I moved in 9 months ago. I went through two whole stores with alot of pictures and without even knowing the three I really wanted were all Salvador Dali. Im not into art in a way that I know artists and their work well. I have heard of Dali for sure but never really gave much more thought to it. However here are the three paitings I found and liked:

Swans Reflecting Elephants

The Elephants

Metamorphosis of Narcisuss

On different things...

It seems like the month of September has been almost all about music posts on the blog. For some reason music has been more important to me that it has been in a while (its always a huge part though it just more now for whatever reason). There has been quite alot of Megadeth and their underrated record "the world needs a hero", I've been fighting the loudness was since Metallica released "death magnetic" and other stuff I've been into have been much in the same vein with the old classic thrash bands.

I also finally understood jazz (I think). Ive been drawn to the genre for a long time but its just now that Ive come to really understand it when listening to "The Black Box of Jazz". Perfect introduction for me.

And also this is my faorite time of the year. Autumn is so beatiful with all the colours and the fresh air. I really enjoy it. For me its better than any other season. Its a shame its so short though. But maybe that makes me appreciate it more.

There are still lots of thing going through my head and Im trying to find out the positives and negatives of some of my plans and I havent decided yet or spoken to anyone about it (and of course I wont say anything here until I know more on how I feel about it). However the last part of September has been good to me for the most part. I was down the first few weeks and then I slept two weeks away also causing headaches every day. So weird because I havent had any problems with headaches really since school and "högstadiet". I realized something was wrong so I cut back on the sleeping and feel better now.

And Im going to buy new running shoes. I think mine has done their job and wants to retire. Ive been experiencing a small pain in my right leg after running so I stopped a couple of weeks ago. Its kind of reminicant (sp?) of when I ran in bad shoes (but alot less). So new shoes it is.

Oh and my band started rehearsing new material. It was pretty fun but I prefer having heard the stuff before I try to play it. Ah well, at least were getting somewhere and out new cd will be out soon I think (delayed by at least 6 mnths at this point).

Well thats all for now.

Votes for "other" in the poll.

I have seen that 5 people have voted "other" in the poll. Why not make a comment to this post and tell me what you consider is the best religious label for you?

Update!

I made a small update with a link list and the possibility to subscribe to the blog. The links do not necesarrily reflect my own thoughts and opinions but for one reason or another I find them worthy of a read. More links will be added as time goes by.

Edit #1: The Temple of Set website is listed because of the two excellent e-books Michael Aquino hs published there. One is his view on The Church of Satan from 1966 to 1975 and the other deals with The Temple of Set but it is a work in progress (i.e. uncomplete).

Two short texts are linked to, Tao Te Ching and Heraclitus Fragments. Both well worth a read but I may not agree with all they have to say. There is also a article on Sunyata and atman, the relationship between hinu and buddhistsic metaphysics. Interesting stuff.

The 600 Club and Abrahadbra websites have nice forums which I like to visit every now and then. At times there are some threads that are well worth a read.

I linked to Cavalcare La Tigre because the author sometimes touches on some really interesting subjects even though I dont agree with him(?) in general. The Stinas blog I found only yesterday and since I've been playing with the though of moving to London I found her story interesting and worth a read.

Opinions wanted.

I see that there have been a few hindus visiting the blog (well 2 according to the poll). Im interested to hear from you what you think of my interpretations of "your" godess. Im sure it differs and I am eclectic in that I use loads of different symbols from different traditions that to me ultimately tries to explain the same thing. Which actually makes me think that it would be fun if anyone would comment on the way I connect certain things like for example the post on hinduism, buddhism and satanism. In other places I have put taoism and old northern religion into the mix as well. I'd love to hear from people what they think about the stuff I write. Positive or negative doesnt really matter but I want it to be constructive not just random use of negative words or such.

Of course anyone is free to comment on stuff I put in the "personal" category as well (which seems to be the part that intrigues most of my readers).

Second update

Just a small note on a couple of updates. I added a small poll to the left. If people vote I will keep it if not I will delete it. Simple as that. I have also been labeling my posts so its easier to find older posts. Right now there are just 3 categories "wisdom" (all things relating to religion and philosophy), "personal" (anything personal/my diary comments) and "other" (as of right now mostly updates and lyrics). I might specify the labels but for now this will do.

Over and out.

The bassics of a good joke.

Now I have been through a rough time lately so I thought it would be nice to include a little joke in the blog. Now not everyone will get this bus most bass players will so here ya go:

Update

I have now transalted most of the blog to the english language. Only long posts in swedish is kept in the original language because of my laziness. I believe there are only 3 entries that still contain swedish. We'll see if I translate them another time.